Dreaming. Breathing. Living.
I hate the fact that I cant call him babe anymore or have those romantic kisses. I miss you. I just want you back.
I cannot describe the hurt I feel right now. To put your time, energy, and trust in another is a process. I’ve invested in a future, I thought this time around would be different. All the things I’ve said and all the things I’ve done were coming from a heart overflowing with love. Now they’re irrelevant. & all the things you’ve said… Well, I wanted so badly to believe they were true. I thought they were! You told me I could trust you, that my heart was safe with you! I was ready for a ring, a wedding and a future! You were so misleading. I guess I was just a convenience for you. Someone to love you while you were struggling with being away. Sometime to say ‘i love you’. I’m sorry but I actually meant it. But now you’re home & I guess the temptations are to great for you to stay away from. I realize that long distance love is hard, but if you love the other it’s worth the battle. Now I don’t know with all this stuff.. Your tshirt, your pictures, the necklace I got for you and especially the memories. I am so incredibly hurt. & now all the bonds I’ve made with your family have to go to waste. I don’t want to feel anything right now. I just can’t imagine a temptation so great you would spoil something you’ve been building for over a year. I guess late is better than never. I thought this was real… Love, you disappoint me.